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Terry
my boyfriend disclosed an affair - I am taking it hard, I have to move out, my part time job is coming to a close, I feel sad anxious etc
the thing that helps is getting out, making new friends, interesting things to discuss, read about
more about the consciousness raising efforts or what ideas are they trying to bring to consciousness, if you have time
the thing that helps is getting out, making new friends, interesting things to discuss, read about
more about the consciousness raising efforts or what ideas are they trying to bring to consciousness, if you have time
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It seems I do today - appointments cancelled. Most of what I'm seeing in the consciousness movement appears to be a variation of what the social structure has always done - visualize what "I" want and through various kinds of effort – manifest it. My problem with this is if I'm not THERE now, how do I know what THERE is? How do I know how to get THERE from here? And once I manifest what I want, does it give me what I invisioned?
There is a lot of talk about engineering spiritual evolution, spiritual evolution is not something that can be engineered – it's impossible to try to be a certain way and experience it at the same time How would a chimp know to turn off development of its jaw muscle to allow the cranium to expand? How could we have consciousness without a larger brain and without a larger brain, how would we know to wish for one, or for consciousness for that matter?
Engineering consciousness is forcing consciousness back into a chimpanzee skull and asking the chimpanzee what it wants. I keep coming back to my original understanding – if we desire awareness we have to face our fears – not develop expansive intellectual models and spiritual practices around them. In a sharing group a lady confided that by observing the uninhibited spontaneity of children playing in her church, she was able to identify the inhibitions within herself – holding her back from the joy of life – and as I remarked, an immeasurable amount of awareness being kept at bay. Identifying her inhibitions she was able to let them go – experiencing this same freedom she had observed in the children.
I think supporting each other in embracing and exploring our fears is the source of all awareness. Becoming relative to our fears, self centeredness gives way to openness, caring, inclusiveness – treating your children as I do my own – this is the natural state. I cannot face my fears if I am creating fears with my untruthfulness. I cannot have myself if I am not being consistent with you.
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